Meditation .. Part 2

Part 1 is HERE.

Today .. I made a funny discovery.

You most likely have heard me before rave about my own stereotyped word: Denial.

Ettada7 ba3d some .. guess what .. meditation.

Enn el mawdoo3 rage3 to the very core philosophy of the sin.

What’s a sin aslan?

Da so2al ahbal btw.

Fe alf haga momken nes2al 3aliha, we neb2a 3arfeen el egabaa .. bass in reality .. 7ekayetha mokhtalefa tamaman.

Ya3ny eh taqwa allah? we tela2y el gada3 nazellak tasmee3 fe kalam kotob .. wel nas 7alha zay el zeft bezzabt, 7aga aslan mod7eka ya3ny.

El mohemm

What happens when a little child does something wrong?

One of two things:

Either they deny they did it. Or they do something stupid that reveals how incapable they are of lying generally, and that surely reveals what they did wrong.

Estanno ba2a sanya wa7da.

What’s the difference between those two?

You have to think about it for a while.

Begadd .. this is serious .. that action those children did differently, actually marked their whole lives aslan

Let’s study the two cases separately:

The child who denied:

The child who chose to deny the wrong deed they committed, was scared .. and this feeling can be interpreted in many ways, choose what fits you, the important thing is that they were scared we khalas. They felt more safe (mark this more safe law sama7t), and they liked it, because el mawdoo3 sahl we 3adda as if they didn’t do anything wrong.

Now .. look at this from a judgment health perspective; how can possibly be wrong and safe together in the same situation?

Ah .. concentrate.

De maynfa3sh te3addy .. because it’s a serious malfunction in life, wrong should be NOT safe.

Touching fire is wrong .. because it burns hands.

mmm ..

and because it felt more safe, man usually goes intimate with safety .. it feels more .. havened, so they keep it ..

.. it becomes a habit so quickly ba2a khalas .. they not only are safe, but also they can do whatever they want.

In addition ba2a, and here I come to my last italicized point, this child shortly believes they do nothing wrong, and all the things they do is right in their point of view. Mahzala.

Anaweya!

They feel safe, they do whatever they want, and they don’t regret anything wrong. They actually don’t believe in the ‘wrong’ philosophy anymore!

Now .. imagine ba2a law fe society be7alo has this lethal mix in its core social equation.

[Lamma tes2al wa7ed yewseflak 7etta mo3ayana enta mate3rafhash, we howa kaman maye3rafhash .. bass tela2eeh 2a3ed yewsefhalak we ka2enno 7afez masr kollaha .. we momken enta tetooh wel yom kollo yedee3 .. bass howa 3ando howa da el sa7! .. el ghalat 3ando ya 3eny dareb khales le daraget enno faker enno law 2allak ma3rafsh yeb2a ghaltan]

[Lamma doctor motakhallef 3aqleyan yo3od yedarreslak betaree2a ghalat, we howa faker enno howa beyfeedak]

[Examples bel habal ba2a .. come up with the rest ba2a in your own meditation]

El mohemm .. those people .. they are in denial.

The child who did NOT deny

This fellow .. had the sensation of the wrong, more strong than the earlier, it was very repelling le daraget enno MA2DERSH (de ahamm kelma fel post!) .. they just couldn’t hide it in anymore .. they either cried or lied in a stupid way .. the sense of right and wrong is very clear in those children. When they do something wrong .. the opposite happens, instead of feeling safer .. they feel terribly scared!

The longer they try to hide it, they scarier they get, and shortly they feel they must just tell someone, confess their wrong deeds and just get penance and forgiveness.

The thing for them is very pensive, they stop living for a while actually.

And the moment they confess their wrong deed, the fresh air of ‘free’ they feel by that, makes them forget whatever they got back in return from people around, be it people’s judgments, punishment or whatever.

They will not do that wrong again. And if they did, confession is their first following action .. actually confession becomes a habit through their lives .. because it’s very refreshing and comforting .. and for them .. nothing is compared to the hell felt stuffing secrets inside.

Taking that into account ba2a ..

.. ya hal tara .. el nas elly bet2ool enn el moshkela .. the missing thing .. the immense error .. the big broblem elly 2a3deen netkallem feeha de .. hal heya moshkelet enn e7na lazem nerga3 le rabena fe3lan ??

we hal el nas elly konna ben2ool (we kont ba2ool), enno homma ghalat .. el nas elly bet2ool enn e7na law rege3na le rabena kollo hayet7all .. hal el nas dool tel3o sa7 ??

Tab so2al ..

.. howa mesh el mafrood yeb2a el wa7ed beno we ben nafso .. 3aref egabet koll hazehe el as2ela el gameela?

egabet el so2al .. howa ana el masayeb de kollaha 3ashan my sins fe3lan?

7ad garrab yetoob we ye2ollena 3eref egabet el so2al da walla eh elly 7asal bezzabt,

To be continued,

[Mind teaser: the problem is sins, walla unatoned sins? think about it keda .. what does that have to do with the word: confession?]